Heaviness is not my enemy...

I bear this load upon my back
Facing daily all I lack
At times I know, I've turned away
Too afraid to fight each day
But here I am, with all my pain
Determined daily to start again.

Heaviness is not my enemy.

I've fought to push this load aside
I've sought to make my plans abide
But now I see they've done no good
I'm tired of living like I "should".
I hope you don't misunderstand
I'm just tired of standing in sinking sand
And the more I fight to control my life
The more I sink and encounter strife.

Heaviness is not my enemy.

This load in my heart. The heaviness I feel.
I gladly accept it...

Now i know my rhyme is deteriating.
It's ok.
I'm just not sure how else to convey...
Heaviness is not my enemy...